I Am The Text Book Case Of A Childhood Complex Trauma Survivor – Who’s Adult Relationships Were With Toxic People ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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I’ve never had one healthy relationship with adults. My relationships from childhood onwards – have all been with unhealthy, toxic, selfish people who do not love me.

I am that classic textbook case of being a severe childhood abuse survivor – particularly beinga childhood sexual abuse survivor – that goes on to have relationships with abusive, toxic people in adulthood.

Both of my marriages were with unhealthy people – both abusive, both selfish to the core. And I was so messed up by my terribly abusive childhood – I assumed they were healthy and I wrongly assumed they loved me. When both of these men only loved themselves. Narcissistic to the core.

I was given crumbs of what seemed likecaring behaviours,and I assumed that was love. It was all fake, all lies, but I was so needy for kindness – I took it.

I knew nothing better.

Because I had…

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